On Wed, 19 Oct 2011 19:19:52 -0400, Doc NP-f31 wrote:
>Hey Fortsters,
>
>Maybe it's just because I'm built the way I am that makes things like
>this occur to me, but I often wonder about WHY I am a boylover. What
>made me this way? I think I have a pretty good grasp on why I ended up
>a BL and it's because I was molested by my Uncle from the ages of
>8-14, whcih just happens to be the range of my AOA.
>
>I know other guys who were just born that way. Maybe there's a lot of
>others who have given the subject some thought. I'd be interested in
>reading about your opinions or suspicions.
>
>Do you remember the first boy you were physcially attracted to?
>
>Did you gradually become aware that you were different? Did it hit you
>all at once?
>
>Please share if you have a mind to,
>
>Doc
>NP-f31
Hey Doc,
What a fascinating topic, once again. Gosh, so many thoughts on this
myself. There are, in my opinion, a myriad of reasons that BLs are the
way they are and many, like me, can probably sing the phrases of Lady
Gaga - "Born This Way". (Just for the record, I am not a fan of Lady
Gaga, unless one of her songs is being covered by an uber-cute boy.)
But perhaps it's not so much that and a collection of other
circumstances and influences.
I had my first taste of things (pardon the expression) at the age of
6. I clearly remember having lost my upper two front teeth. Of course,
at that young age, I really didn't understand all the implications of
what me and the other boys - ranging in age from 6 to 11 (or so) -
were doing. I knew it felt good when it was done to me, and I enjoyed
making others feel good. I knew enough - even then - to know that what
we were doing was "naughty" and that the code of silence must be
obeyed unconditionally. Of course, that only served to romanticize
For me, it started off quite innocently enough - a group of
neighborhood boys getting together, playing strip poker, which evolved
into more 'advanced' tasks when one had already lost all his clothing.
Things went full-tilt shortly before my 9th birthday. My second-ever
full-on sexual experience was with two older boys - at the same time.
Since I was often the youngest and/or smallest in a group, I routinely
took up the role of what is now referred to as the "bottom" - a role
that I thoroughly embraced.
By the time I was 9 1/2 - 10 years old, I was developing genuine
crushes on other boys, usually my age, some slightly older. As I
ventured further into the early stages of puberty, my crushes often
included much older boys and even *gasp* men.
Between the ages of 8 and 14, sex with boys, teens, and men was a
frequent source of fun for me. I'll be the first to admit that my
circumstances were uncommon, but looking back, I can only say that I
was molested in purely the legal sense of the word. Things slowed
dramatically as I approached the age of 15. A slight growth spurt made
me somewhat gangly, though I was still relatively short, and I got
rather "spotty" as they say on Victor's side of the pond.
Like you, Doc, my primary AOA are boys between 8 and 14 -
coincidentally (or not) the ages I was the most sexually-active,
though I can find boys as young as toddler age utterly adorable and
have had numerous (non-sexual) encounters with older teen boys that I
found thoroughly engaging.
If I were a betting man, I'd guess that the percentage of adult males
who are or would otherwise be considered BLs hasn't changed that much
over history. There are more of us now - in numbers - but mainly by
virtue of the increase in our population. And the internet (thank you
Al Gore) has given us a forum with which we can meet and interact.
Finally, I can't help but mention a man that I have a great deal of
respect for and is for all intents and purposes a boylover in its
purest form, and that man is Orel Hershiser. I know you know who he
is, Doc, as you watch the Little League World Series every year.
Nearly every year since I started watching, Orel has commented on the
beauty of a particular boy. I won't speculate as to whether he is
sexually attracted to boys, but I've heard him say more than a few
times "What a beautiful kid!" when talking about a particular player.
I find myself watching not just for the pureness of the sport and the
pureness of the boys playing it, but for Orel's commentary on the
beauty of boys. And yes, I realize that an adult male can say that a
boy is beautiful without being sexually attracted to him, but it's
awfully rare.
Okay, I think I've rambled enough, at least for now.
Love,
Chad (NP-b24)
"Well, can't he just beam up?"
"This is *reality* Greg."
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