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4s00th <4s00th@hushmail.com> wrote:
> > On Fri, 19 Dec 2008 16:41:00 -0800 (PST), LC <secto...@gmail.com>
> > wrote:
> >
> >
> >
> > >Every two weeks I receive injections of a female hormone
> > >(medroxyprogesterone) designed to counteract my testosterone, thus
> > >depressing my libido- a process known as "chemical castration." I
> > >also
> > >attend weekly group psychotherapy sessions, in a cognitive
> > >restructuring ("brainwash") program for sex offenders (mostly
> > >incestuous fathers, step-fathers, and grandfathers).
> > >a
> > >ultra-liberal nudist family. The parents attended and hosted adults-
> > >only orgies. The children went with them on nude camping trips and
> > >visits to the nude beach. Although I was a self-described pedophile,
> > >the parents allowed me to befriend their two children, a boy and a
> > >girl, then around 7 and 8.
> > >play,
> > >usually nude. In addition, I fondled the girl's vulva and
> > >occasionally
> > >performed cunnilingus on her. I never had erections in their
> > >presence,
> > >nor did I ask them to perform any sexual acts on me.
> > >realized her feelings for me amounted merely to friendship. In my
> > >fantasy I was her lover; in practice, her playmate.
> > >the company of children, more than most adults do. Second, I am
> > >unable
> > >to maintain an erection with any partner (man, woman, girl, or boy)
> > >which is a severe handicap in adult relationships; but no handicap
> > >with children. Third, my ideal woman would be quite petite (like my
> > >mother, who was only 5 ft. tall, and thin); so girls are attractive
> > >by
> > >being short, and by having slender bodies and smooth skin. Fourth, I
> > >lack attributes expected of an adult male (no job, no car, no dancing
> > >ability, etc.); which makes it difficult to relate to adult women,
> > >especially as I age; but kids don't care if you're old and poor; they
> > >merely seek attention. Fifth, I am emotionally child-like and
> > >childish
> > >myself.
> > >to justify my behavior. I believed that sexual pleasure was
> > >inherently
> > >good, and that some (not all) types of erotic play were age-
> > >appropriate for children, such as masturbation, fondling, and nudity.
> > >If sex were basically good, then sexual learning would begin as soon
> > >as the child showed interest.(Precocity in music is praised; but
> > >sexual ignorance is considered virtue.) I believed that my needs
> > >suited me to be an erotic mentor to an intelligent child.
> > >consent of the parents, could become acceptable in advanced societies
> > >such as Denmark or the Netherlands. And among avant-garde life-
> > >stylers
> > >here. But I failed to worry enough about the reaction of the straight
> > >state.
> >
> On Fri, 19 Dec 2008 18:50:58 -0800, Brandon D Cartwright
> <user@example.net> wrote:
>
> >On Fri, 19 Dec 2008 16:41:00 -0800 (PST), LC <sectoor4@gmail.com>
> >wrote:
> >
> >>Every two weeks I receive injections of a female hormone
> >>(medroxyprogesterone) designed to counteract my testosterone, thus
> >>depressing my libido- a process known as "chemical castration." I
> >>also
> >>attend weekly group psychotherapy sessions, in a cognitive
> >>restructuring ("brainwash") program for sex offenders (mostly
> >>incestuous fathers, step-fathers, and grandfathers).
> >> My crime occurred in 1980 or earlier. Thru swinging, I had met
> >>a
> >>ultra-liberal nudist family. The parents attended and hosted adults-
> >>only orgies. The children went with them on nude camping trips and
> >>visits to the nude beach. Although I was a self-described pedophile,
> >>the parents allowed me to befriend their two children, a boy and a
> >>girl, then around 7 and 8.
> >> Most of my interaction with the kids consisted of innocent
> >>play,
> >>usually nude. In addition, I fondled the girl's vulva and
> >>occasionally
> >>performed cunnilingus on her. I never had erections in their
> >>presence,
> >>nor did I ask them to perform any sexual acts on me.
> >> I was romantically in love with my girl victim, although I
> >>realized her feelings for me amounted merely to friendship. In my
> >>fantasy I was her lover; in practice, her playmate.
> >> My urge was driven by several factors: First, I genuinely enjoy
> >>the company of children, more than most adults do. Second, I am
> >>unable
> >>to maintain an erection with any partner (man, woman, girl, or boy)
> >>which is a severe handicap in adult relationships; but no handicap
> >>with children. Third, my ideal woman would be quite petite (like my
> >>mother, who was only 5 ft. tall, and thin); so girls are attractive
> >>by
> >>being short, and by having slender bodies and smooth skin. Fourth, I
> >>lack attributes expected of an adult male (no job, no car, no dancing
> >>ability, etc.); which makes it difficult to relate to adult women,
> >>especially as I age; but kids don't care if you're old and poor; they
> >>merely seek attention. Fifth, I am emotionally child-like and
> >>childish
> >>myself.
> >> I developed an elaborate rationalization ("stinkin' thinkin' ")
> >>to justify my behavior. I believed that sexual pleasure was
> >>inherently
> >>good, and that some (not all) types of erotic play were age-
> >>appropriate for children, such as masturbation, fondling, and nudity.
> >>If sex were basically good, then sexual learning would begin as soon
> >>as the child showed interest.(Precocity in music is praised; but
> >>sexual ignorance is considered virtue.) I believed that my needs
> >>suited me to be an erotic mentor to an intelligent child.
> >> I believed that such relationships, with the knowledge and
> >>consent of the parents, could become acceptable in advanced societies
> >>such as Denmark or the Netherlands. And among avant-garde life-
> >>stylers
> >>here. But I failed to worry enough about the reaction of the straight
> >>state.
> >
> >Congratulations for having the courage to confront your sickness
> >and recognize it for what it is and persevering with your treatment..
>
> Brandon, you need to stop pretending you are some kind of expert in
> the field when you no nothing of any true worth about pedophilia. It
> is not a sickness, it is a natural preference, just the same as some
> people prefer strawberry ice cream and others prefer vanilla, and it
> falls along the natural continuum of human sexual preference -- if it
> did not, it would not have always existed, but it has.
>
> Pedophilia does not require treatment -- it requires understanding and
> acceptance; understanding that you cannot change it, understanding
> that you must live with it, understanding that you can really harm
> some wonderful people if you let it control you. Acceptance that you
> must be responsible for your own actions, acceptance that there is no
> excuse for harming others for your own selfish desires, acceptance
> that you and YOU ALONE can choose what you do.
>
> I know sickness -- I live with it daily. My auto-immune disease -- I
> can do nothing about but take my treatments and hope that they keep
> the disease at bay. My pain -- I can do nothing about but take my
> treatments and hope that they will be enough to keep me going. My
> depression -- I can do nothing about but take my medicine and hope
> that it will be enough to keep me out of the kind of despair that
> would cause me to hurt myself or someone else. These things I can do
> nothing about but accept the currently available treatments and hope
> that they are enough until better treatments come along. And, yes,
> some of those treatments do involve trying to manage my behaviors some
> since behavior can trigger sickness or make it worse.
>
> But my pedophilia -- there is no acceptable treatment for pedophilia
> -- because it isn't an illness and doesn't require treatment. It
> requires that I accept that this is the way it is, that I be
> responsible for my own behaviors and that I control what I do, not let
> desires control me. Chemical castration sounds like a nice little
> trick -- until you look at how well -- or how poorly -- it works. In
> the first place, it can only lessen sexual desire -- it cannot change
> behavior. And that's assuming that it works on the person being given
> the damn stuff! For many people, long-term depo-provera just doesn't
> do enough to slow down libido. AND, as I said, pedophilia is a
> feeling, child molesting is a behavior. You don't have to have sexual
> desire to act out those behaviors. Just as you don't have to have an
> erection to molest a child. In the long term, it doesn't work. For
> many people, it doesn't work at all. Trust me on this -- I've never
> taken depo-provera except for illness, but I was on steroids most of
> the years between my 18th and 36th birthdays -- drugs that are
> chemically very similar, and they did nothing to me except turn my
> body into a mess of pain from decalcified bones and connective
> tissues.
>
> Long-term cognitive-behavioral therapy is one of the few things that
> can be effective -- and do you know why? Because it teaches you to
> accept what you cannot change and to manage your behavior accordingly.
> Funny, but that's just what I've always said you had to do.
>
> You've proven time and time again that your "knowledge" of pedophilia
> is based on prejudiced belief in false stereotypes that media idiots
> push -- and I've shown you how wrong you are so many times that you
> now admit that you may have been mistaken in your preconceived notions
> about pedophilia and pedophiles. Isn't it time to let go of all of
> them and admit that I know what I'm talking about? Or will you bring
> up all the straw men that you so frequently post here from web sites
> that don't know a damn thing except how to whip up hatred and
> ignorance?
>
> What really bites my ass is why I still care enough to keep trying
> with you! I ought to just wash my hands of the whole damn mess and say
> fuck you and leave you to wallow in the ignorance that you refuse to
> let go of!
>
> If I had any brain cells left that weren't all too busy making sure I
> don't let myself do the wrong thing, I'd give you up for a lost cause.
>
> XXX is a lost cause. It astounds me that I can actually say that, but
> it's the truth. As long as he wants to continue to lie to himself and
> make excuses for doing things that he shouldn't do, then I can't help
> him. But I'm also willing to bet that he's a lot less certain of
> himself when it comes down to actually doing anything than he lets on.
> He might want to blame society for the metaphoric gun in his hand, but
> he knows damn well that it's his finger on the trigger.
>
> -- 4s00th@hushmail.com
>
> If you send email, I will reply to it here at asbl
> (without showing your email addy)
> unless you ask me not to.
Great post!
I cut out the crosspost groups so the others might not see this but I
don't care.
Question: Why did LC crosspost his "history"? Doesn't he know thats
what trolls do? Is he a troll and his confession false? If it is its
still worth it to make your great post happen. Thanks for all you do
for BLs.
--
Grant
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