Stephen's Secure Blog #228
These stories about Stephen began was when he was 10 years old, and
moving to a new part of the country to attend a special school for
gifted students, in the 1950's. This was from a time before computers
would fit on a desk, and when people communicated with friends in other
countries by actual letters sent through the postal service. He wrote
225 of them to a friend. He stopped writing to his penpal, but found he
still wanted to record his life, in case he lost his memory again, and
wrote 30 entries in his first logbook. Then he wrote to an artificial
intelligence called Geenee, in the master computer in his school for
gifted students, which he started attending in 2016. Now it's after
2018, and he's continuing to save his memories in a secure blog.
All characters are fictitious, even if some of them might have names
that belong to some actual people, or act like people we know.
The stories may not be posted in chronological order.
Stephen is 16 in this story, in the Fall of year 7 of his special
school.
Stephen's Secure Blog #228 "Sakya Monastery"
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I ported to near my pavilion just outside of Sera. There were four
extra people there. I walked closer, and they rose. We sat. I said "You
have things to tell me." One looked surprised. I looked at Rhamcha, who
said to them, "He is very sensitive to your feelings, and there is one
other than last time." I said said with a grin, "And you all brought
more than your ears." The three who I met last time, smiled. The new
man was a little shy. I said to him, "Do you want to talk to me
privately about what you think is your problem? Although it would be
good for others to learn from it." He looked surprised, and blurted
out, "You know!" I said "Who you are, is shouting it at me. There is a
lot of built up frustration and shame there. Come, let us release it.
You WILL feel better." He looked miserable and really embarrassed, and
whispered, "I get aroused when I think sexually of other men." I said
"Other than creating an unneeded personal flagpole, what is the problem
in that?" The others smiled, and he was confused.
I said "I see you have some difficulty expressing yourself. So, you
can answer my direct questions. Be honest, because if you aren't, we
will all know it. Do you like to hurt people?" He said in shock, "No!
Never!" I said "Do you express anger or hate, or feel that a lot?" He
thought a little, and said, "I think I do not." The others nodded. I
said "Do you like to help people?" He said "I do." I said "Why?" He
said "There is the joy of sharing, in accomplishment, and in
friendship. It makes me feel alive and useful." I said "Would you ever
want to force your will on another?" He said "Not ever! Just the idea
of that makes me feel bad." I said "Do you always try to do your best
in your assigned tasks, and in improving yourself?" He said "I think I
do." The others nodded. I said "Do your superiors and your fellows, and
those of less accomplishment, like and respect you?" He thought a
while. Rhamcha said "I will speak for all of us, and say we and they
do." I said to the man, "From what I see and hear, you are all that a
good man should be. A VERY good man. And this is felt by all who know
ALL of you. Now tell me if you have a real problem." He cried. Rhamcha
hugged him with love, which surprised the man a lot.
I said "We are all different people. That is a good thing. Who you
are is right for YOU, and good people know that, and respect you. All
of us deserve love, and need to give love. How that is expressed and
shared is part of our different basic natures, and should be embraced,
and not concealed in shame, which would be very unhealthy. Accept
yourself. Love yourself. You are very worthy of all of that, and more.
And there is something else. You have the capability of sharing love,
more than most, because you are a very loving person, and I am proud to
know you, and even more proud that I could help you realize that." He
cried some more.
The aura of another man flared, and he said, "Master Teacher! I just
discovered that I love you!" The others looked at him in surprise. I
said "I see that. Some of your fellows are surprised, but they
shouldn't be all that much, because I love you. I love everybody. You
have all felt it. The whole world has. It is also true that love is
returned. So it should be no surprise that you love me, because I love
you. All is love, and love is all. At least I like to think so, being
that it is so much a part of me. There is something I should say. Some
people think that the greater should not love the lesser, or that the
lesser should not love the greater. They are wrong. All are equal in
love. There is one more thing. Sexual love, and the activities they
promote. I am attracted only to women. But I would not deny any person
who loves me, my physical love. I am love. I could not deny any part of
love. All my students are the same in that, male, female, of all sexual
feelings. We live in a sea of love, and our bodies only enhance that."
Rhamcha said, "I have met some of his students. I have felt that in
them. They love each other in a way, and in intensity, I cannot fully
understand. I think working to do that is going to be VERY
interesting!" I grinned and nodded, and the others smiled, even the
crying man. I said to him, "You won't know, but your aura is changed.
It is more clear, and there is a lot of green in it." They knew what
that meant. Love. I said with a happy grin, "You are going to be even
more popular. A green aura is a magnet for attention and love. Be
happy." He said with a radiant smile, "I will! I too feel love for you,
and I think for many others, too. It is a wonderful joyous feeling. I
which I could share it with the world." Then he said in surprise and
awe, "You have! Oh what joy you must have felt!" I nodded. I said "This
is all for today. Too many new things at one time are not good. Be
well." I stood, and they stood and we bowed. Rhamcha escorted them back
to the Monastery.
Then he came back and sat with me, I said, "Are you going to bring
all your friends' problems to me? What about you own superiors? Can't
they help?" He said "Not only can they not help, asking them to, only
makes them worse. You saw that man! A few words from an Abbot would
have made a great difference. They would not even speak to him." I said
"Is there any way to make new Abbots without poisoning the old ones?"
He grinned and said "I know you don't really mean we should kill them,
careful with that, or it can get you into trouble. Might be worth it,
though. But then, you do have a good idea. Dharmsala." He looked
interested. I said "I could ask them to go, and bring word of me, as my
emissaries. I could even offer to send them my way. Could they refuse?"
He grinned really wide, and said, "I don't know, but I would really
like to find out. It could take them a long time to come back, even if
they start the minute they got there." I said "I was aware of that,
walking, but they could use an airplane. Well, we can think on that
some more. It would have to be after my tour of this area is over. I
don't want to lose you right now." He said "I feel the same."
I said "I and my associates have made some plans, and with some new
ideas, in support of this country's future after it is free. I didn't
know what the er, others would think of that, and was a little afraid
to find out. Well, they liked it so much, that actually hurt." He was
in absolute awe. I said "Actually, they were a little annoyed with me
for not thinking of those things before, so they pushed a little harder
than usual. I just wish they would leave me alone, and let me get on
with my work. Unfortunately, they know that, and it amuses them." He
said in even greater awe, "You treat them like they are your equals in
some way." I said "Well, that's how they think of me. I know better
than to tell them they are wrong, much as I'd like to." He almost
choked. I poked him, and we hugged.
I said "So, which Monastery or Temple shall we visit today?" He said
"Reting?" I said "I do NOT want to go there!" He said with sympathy,
"Bad memories?" I said "Yes, but there is something else. I would be
moved to cause a disruption." He said "So it is true? He is really a
tool of the Chinese?" I said, standing, "Sakya. Ready to go?" He stood
and said, "Ready!" We arrived at one of the main entrances, my usual
way. After a while, a Lama came out wearing a big smile. I said to
Rhamcha, "Well, that's different." He smiled. The Lama came to us, and
I greeted him by name, which made his smile bigger. I said "Is there
something wrong with your mouth? It has a shape which is not one I have
seen before in this situation." He laughed. He said "I am sorry that
you were so deprived." I said "So am I. Please explain why I have not
had to work to see your smile." He said "It is because we love what you
are doing, and find there is much humor in it." I said "Some don't
appreciate that." He grinned and said, "We find humor in that, too." I
grinned and said, "I can't disagree with that." We went inside. After
some distance, we entered a big hall. On the stage were some Senior
Lamas and an Abbot. We went up the steps, and we all bowed at each
other, and I greeted them by their names. They obviously expected it,
but still it made them smile. After we sat, I said "Is there something
in the water, or the air, which is causing this? I have not seen so
many smiling faces in one place, since I came here in this life." The
whole room laughed. I said in mock despair and horror, "Oh no, what
have I done?" They laughed some more.
The Abbot said, "What you have done, is be you. We like that." I said
"Well, I couldn't be anybody else. How well are you doing with that?"
He said "Ah, the Chinese. They try to destroy us, to make us into
them." I said "That's bad in itself, but made much worse because they
chose the worst kind of people to make you into." That earned a lot of
applause and laughter. The Abbot said, "Well said. Everything we
believe in, they are not, and what they believe in, is against all who
we are." I said "There is mutual disgust. We should pity them. But
still help them to provide us with some er, fun." He said "Absolutely!
While we are properly ignoring them." I groaned, and said, "Oh no, that
again!" Some laughter. He said "Do you regret saying that?" I said
"Absolutely not!" More laughter. I said "But seriously, some of their
education is useful, and free. If they were all made to leave, you
would be without that, and a lot of other useful things." He said
"True. What we dislike the most, is being forced, and the loyalty
training." I said "So, we need to decide what of what they provide we
want to keep, and what we want to shove down, er, do without." Some
laughter. I said "And if we might lose something we want, we need to
find a way to get it from someplace else, before that loss becomes
serious." He said "I understand. I see what you are doing. This is our
task." I said "Wise. I like that!" He grinned.
I said "To work this right, and in a way which succeeds for many
lifetimes to come, the solutions to all the problems this country
faces, and will face, must come from the people who are going to be
living it." He said "Then they will have only themselves to place blame
for failure." I said "Or success! Let us make that so!" Large applause.
I said "Not any of this will be easy. There is an issue which I have
not said anything about since I have been here. A very sensitive issue,
which I was reminded of just this morning." I looked at Rhamcha. He
said "It is, what do we do about those of us who are working willingly
for the Chinese?" He said "That is a problem. How do we identify them?"
I said "I would know when I meet the traitors. But I don't want to!" I
had tears on my cheeks. They understood. I said "I should remind you, I
have ethical restrictions. I am not able to act against somebody for
political reasons, or for disagreements. Only if they threaten to or
cause actual personal harm. And then I must be just, and can not
punish, but prevent and educate." He said "Ah, yes. At The Wheel, you
made your adversary a better person, if not thinner." I smiled, "Good
one. I see I have some credible competition in humor." He grinned.
I said "Part of your establishment reminds me of Mongolia, where I
spent some time recently, and in a distant past life." He said "It was
originally built by them, and we have rebuilt it in the same way." I
said "But there is much which hasn't been rebuilt." He said "That is
true. However, we have no need for the space, because we are not
allowed more students here." I said "And not allowed your own leader?"
He said "It is true he now lives in India, of his own will." I said
"And if the Chinese changed that rule, or left, and he were to return,
not have room for them. So you think we should prepare for that?" I
said, "Do you think I will fail?" He looked surprised and thoughtful.
He said "Will you?" I said "I will not be allowed to fail." He looked
really surprised at the implications of that, and at Rhamcha nodding in
agreement. He said "We will build." I said "That would be a lot of
work. Would there be time for that, and still have the required
studies?" He said "Are you teasing us?" I grinned and said, "Yes." He
laughed. I said "Tell me what you want, and if I agree, and can do it
my way, you shall have it." We discussed it, and several times I asked
for pictures to be sent from their minds to mine. It took several
hours. Then we had a meal.
I said "Have they returned all the documents?" He said "Some. I don't
expect any more will be returned." I said "What do you think should
happen to those?" He said "I would like us to have them back, but not
as we are now. We can't store them or display them properly. I would
not like them to be damaged. In truth, they are better where they are,
where more can see and appreciate them. Very few come here to look at
the ones we have." I said "Wise. This will change in the coming years.
We can't know how that will affect the documents and where they should
be. If I forget, remind me at times." He nodded his thanks. Then we
discussed the building project some more. Then I said "Are we now in
agreement?" He said "Yes, we are." I said "When I last made some
buildings, nobody saw it happen. Is there some small desire to see that
this time?" With a face splitting grin, he said "Absolutely!
We all went outside, and not at a leisurely pace. They saw the ruins
disappear, and the ground being prepared. Then they saw foundations,
and then very thick stone walls, becoming thinner as they went up to
four stories. They saw crystal doors and windows being fitted into
openings. They saw the carvings appear on the sides of the buildings
and everywhere else. They didn't see inside, then, but they would.
After all the work stopped, I said, "I set that to go slowly, so you
could see it happen. Don't ask how it was done, because it would take
longer than we both have in this life to explain it so you would
understand, with just speaking. But, I will be doing something about
that, too. I have some ways of learning I will be sharing with you,
after you are free, which are significantly in advance of this world,
and of all the other worlds I know of." He said in shock, "Other
worlds?" I said, "Did you think my method of transportation was limited
to just one world?" He said "Oh, Wow!" Rhamcha said "This country is
going to have a VERY interesting future!" There was a large chorus of
"Absolutely!"
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