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On Mon, 14 Nov 2011 15:58:59 -0700, HMS Victor Victorian
<victorvictorian@hushunomail.com> wrote:
>On Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:35:20 -0500, 4s00th <4s00th@hushmail.com>
>wrote:
>
>>On Sun, 13 Nov 2011 10:12:51 -0700, HMS Victor Victorian
>><victorvictorian@hushunomail.com> wrote:
>>
>>>On Fri, 11 Nov 2011 09:36:26 -0500, 4s00th <4s00th@hushmail.com>
>>>wrote:
>>>
>>>>On Thu, 10 Nov 2011 17:13:26 -0500, Chester Azziz <chet@galleria.net>
>>>>wrote:
>>>>
>>>>I have to question your taste in this matter. Look, I'm not oblivious
>>>>to the fact that there is an awful lot of sexual abuse perpetrated by
>>>>predators out there -- but I really think we need to be sensitive to
>>>>the boys and girls who are being victimized by these evil bastards. We
>>>>should know better than most that it is certainly possible to control
>>>>these desires and urges -- even if it causes us pain to know we have
>>>>to hold back. But we are boy-lovers -- LOVERS! The idea of satisfying
>>>>our own selfish needs by possibly harming those boys we love is
>>>>anathema to us.
>>>>
>>>>And, just to be honest with you, the constant coverage of this story
>>>>by ESPN hasn't been terribly good for my own mental health. I think
>>>>it's partially about knowing my own struggles to remain a boy-lover
>>>>and not become a predator, but, even worse, it's bringing up a lot of
>>>>my own issues as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I've had to
>>>>really push away from my favorite channel over the past few days to
>>>>gain a little perspective.
>>>>
>>>>I don't like that the news is characterizing these boys as "ruined,"
>>>>as if they are permanently damaged goods who have little to no chance
>>>>of happiness -- we all know boys who have become more than mere
>>>>survivors. I won't say that I'm doing more than surviving, but I've
>>>>still managed to do a lot of good things with my life despite the
>>>>pain, despite the problems and despite my self-imposed isolation.
>>>>Nonetheless, we shouldn't make light of the amount of pain and
>>>>suffering that these victims of rape have had to deal with over the
>>>>last few years. Some of them came forth and told -- and were not
>>>>believed! Some of them came forth and told -- and the legal system
>>>>totally failed them! And others suffered silently.
>>>>
>>>>Maybe some of you think that the situation is so sad that you have to
>>>>find a way to laugh or it will drive you to despair -- I can
>>>>understand that. But I just can't see it as appropriate for us -- who
>>>>love boys.
>>>>
>>>>Are others having some of the same problems that I am? I would be
>>>>interested in hearing about it if so.
>>>>
>>>>Love,
>>>>Steve
>>>>-- 4s00th@hushmail.com
>>>>
>>>>My email is always available for those looking for and willing to supply support in the effort to remain boy-lovers and not become child-molesters de jure if not de facto.
>>>
>>>Dear Foursoothe,
>>>
>>>You'll excuse me if I state that I must strongly protest the tone of
>>>your message. You vehemently object to the "news" characterising the
>>>boys as ruined, yet at every turn in your essay you utilise the very
>>>terminology and philosophy that perpetuates that very result, to wit:
>>>
>>>"sexual abuse"
>>>"predators"
>>>"victimised"
>>>"evil bastards"
>>>"selfish needs"
>>>"anathema"
>>>"rape"
>>>
>>>I believe that whatever one can say about heterosexual men, one can
>>>equally claim about Boylovers (and I use the term in a much wider
>>>sense than you). There are no lack of heterosexual men who might be
>>>characterised as bad because they are bad people ... caring not
>>>whether they hurt others. Equally, there are, I'm ashamed to say, no
>>>lack of paedophiles about whom can be claimed the same. Yet as there
>>>are an overwhelming majority of good men emotionally and physically
>>>loving women that are good, the same can probably be said about
>>>Boylovers.
>>>
>>>But we can't actually know for certain, can we? The culture of
>>>perpetual fear has pushed these individuals into the dark, a culture
>>>which you seem to wish to perpetuate. As far as being isolated ...
>>>you imply you are because of your own negative sexual experience. I
>>>can reassure you, based on my own experience, that there is no group
>>>so isolated by hatred and fear as those who aspire to love boys.
>>>
>>>Should X surpress certain behaviours towards Y because society so
>>>overwhelmingly rejects X and stigmitises Y? Is this reason enough at
>>>any time? Think about it. How different and perhaps unjust our world
>>>would ever more be.
>>>
>>>Sincerely,
>>>HMS Victor Victorian, NP-g18
>>>God Save the Queen.
>>>God Bless the Prince of Wales.
>>>God Preserve the Windsors.
>>>Rule Britannia!
>>
>>And yet, you overlook the facts: boys who engage in sex with an adult
>>under whatever circumstances are likely to be hurt -- whether they are
>>hurt physically or emotionally. Even a boy-lover with the best of
>>intentions can end up hurting a boy by moving their relationship from
>>non-sexual to sexual. There is simply NO WAY to determine in advance
>>how any particular boy will react. These are facts.
>>
>>Given these facts, how can I not characterize a man who is willing to
>>take that chance with someone he claims to love as "selfish?" As
>>choosing to satisfy his own "selfish needs" over protecting the one he
>>loves? It doesn't matter whether a boy is actually hurt by the
>>relationship or the sex or whether the boy is later traumatized by
>>society's reaction to the relationship -- the harm is done. And I can
>>even argue that most of the harm is done afterwards unless we're
>>talking about out-and-out rape or even that gray area where there
>>might be inferred coercion. As one of the boys I loved and who
>>actually told me he wanted to make love with me once told me -- and
>>this is a paraphrase -- "It doesn't matter how equal you try to make
>>both partners. In the end, it's just you standing in front of this
>>much bigger person." (FTR, he and I never met in person, and he used
>>to be both amused and apologetic when he knew how uncomfortable he
>>made me when he told me some of the things he'd like to do with me!)
>>
>>Why would you take the chance of harming someone you truly love?
>>Choosing that option CANNOT be about what's in his best interest.
>>
>>Certain behaviors have to be suppressed when the result is harm -- and
>>especially the kind of pain and harm that can be caused by our actions
>>towards boys.
>>
>>love,
>>Steve
>>-- 4s00th@hushmail.com
>>
>>My email is always available for those looking for and willing to supply support in the effort to remain boy-lovers and not become child-molesters de jure if not de facto.
>
>Dear Steven,
>
>I certainly do not overlook that fact, as you've put it. There is
>always the potential for harm, particularly in the context of a
>society that so stigmatises sex. This is my point, you see. You have
>used inflamatory language that perfectly reflects that society, and in
>that sense, reinforces that stigma. Do you believe that all societies
>react in such a punative and destructive way? I would tell you no.
>The tone in which you've set your argument is distinctly Western.
>
>As for "selfish" ... Love is precisely that, if you think about it. I
>can't think of a more personal and self-centered emotion. I
>understand your motivation, but if one takes your complete argument
>and tenor to heart, one must conclude you believe all those who do not
>adhere to your measure do not truly love boys, and thus are evil
>predator bastards.
>
>Which is precisely the position of society today.
>
>Sincerely,
>Victor
>God Save the Queen.
>God Bless the Prince of Wales.
>God Preserve the Windsors.
>Rule Britannia!
Having thought more about the issue, let me first state that my
original post referred specifically to predators -- pedophiles who
molest boys for their own sexual gratification without caring what
harm may befall their victims. In that sense, it is legitimately
"sexual abuse" and "rape" by "evil bastards" who "victimize"
boys/children for their own "selfish needs." These people are NOT
boy-lovers.
And I want to be clear that I understand that sometimes boy-lovers
make bad decisions. Let's face it, we want to believe that our boys
love us romantically and would welcome sexual advances despite the
fact that most boys -- especially pre-pubertal boys -- are not
interested in sex no matter how much they flirt with us. They may have
romantic feelings for us, but they are not the same as the kind of
romantic feelings that adults have. Just to be honest, it's hard for
boys who haven't had an orgasm and cannot ejaculate to understand the
ultimate goal that adults have for sex. They might enjoy a little
fooling around -- but that's more a fact of being a bit naughty than
it is about wanting to have sex. It's far too easy to believe what we
want to believe. And we shouldn't underestimate how much boys like to
flirt and how much the attention it gets them only reinforces such
behaviors!
Also, we cannot forget that there are plenty of boys who would be very
willing to share their bodies to continue the relationship or just
because they might know that we want it. On the one hand, there can be
an implied coercion -- that if they don't, we might take our attention
and affection and love away from them. On the other hand, there is the
idea that they shouldn't be making love with us when it's not what
they want and only done because they love us enough to want to please
us. Frankly, I don't want to make love with anyone who does not
actually want to make love with me -- and certainly not with anyone
who thinks he owes me or is afraid that I will take my love away from
him if he does not.
And then there are cases where no actual sexual contact was intended,
but simple affectionate gestures are misinterpreted -- either by the
boy or by someone who then pushes the boy about it. That was a problem
for me simply because I cannot help being affectionate with boys! I
don't think it bothered any of my boys -- even the ones who understood
that I was sexually and romantically attracted to them. Most of them
returned my affection, though sometimes it took a little getting used
to! And since most of the parents involved knew me since I had grown
up in Scouting, they understood that I wasn't a danger to their boys.
That's not to say that they understood my attraction to the boys.
Incidentally, I think that, for some boys, knowing how I really felt
about them and also knowing that I wouldn't pressure them or act on
those feelings actually made them feel closer to me, and our
relationship was actually more intimate emotionally as a result..
The point is that I wouldn't classify boy-lovers who make these
mistakes as "evil bastards." At the same time, that doesn't lessen the
harm that they might be doing. At worst, I would prolly consider them
to be misguided or having poor judgment. And while their intentions
are not evil, they are motivated by "selfish needs."
To be honest, for years I have wanted nothing more than to find a boy
who loved me -- both as a friend and genuinely romantically. And part
of the problem is that I fear I might be too tempted to believe what I
wanted to believe, but an even bigger part of that problem is the pain
of knowing that they don't feel the same way that I do. Nobody does! I
mean, seriously the people who have been attracted to me and
interested in me romantically are not people who _I_ have been
attracted to! I have no doubt that part of my chosen isolation has
some root in the negative experience that I had, but I have to admit
that there were a lot of pleasant sexual experiences with peers as
well. The primary reason for my self-imposed isolation is fear: fear
that I might not show the best judgment and fear that I will only end
up breaking my own heart YET again and again. And it's not uncommon in
survivors to have that intense fear of abandonment or of having your
feelings not returned.
As for love being selfish in nature ... well, I can agree that some of
the behaviors involved have a certain motivation in the way that it
makes us feel. But I also feel that a hallmark of true love is that
one is truly more concerned about the well-being of his loved-one than
his own well-being; the willingness to put the needs of someone else
above your own. As I said, I freely admit that part of the motivation
is the way that it makes you, yourself, feel; so I wouldn't classify
it as altruistic, but it may be as close to altruistic as we can
actually get.
To misquote Robert Heinlein, "there is no such thing as altruism since
altruism is based on self-deception -- the root of all sin. If you
find yourself feeling altruistic, look a little closer at your
motives, and if you still want to do it [whatever that thing you feel
altruistic about is], then wallow in it!" That's horribly paraphrased
from Time Enough for Love.
I do wish that others would join in this discussion. I would
appreciate their thoughts and feelings.
Love,
Steve
-- 4s00th@hushmail.com
My email is always available for those looking for and willing to supply support in the effort to remain boy-lovers and not become child-molesters de jure if not de facto.
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