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From: HMS Victor Victorian <victorvictorian@hushunomail.com>
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Subject: Re: Have you ever wondered about...
Date: Fri, 21 Oct 2011 11:52:25 -0600
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On Wed, 19 Oct 2011 19:19:52 -0400, Doc NP-f31 wrote:
>Hey Fortsters,
>
>Maybe it's just because I'm built the way I am that makes things like
>this occur to me, but I often wonder about WHY I am a boylover. What
>made me this way? I think I have a pretty good grasp on why I ended up
>a BL and it's because I was molested by my Uncle from the ages of
>8-14, whcih just happens to be the range of my AOA.
>
>I know other guys who were just born that way. Maybe there's a lot of
>others who have given the subject some thought. I'd be interested in
>reading about your opinions or suspicions.
>
>Do you remember the first boy you were physcially attracted to?
>
>Did you gradually become aware that you were different? Did it hit you
>all at once?
>
>Please share if you have a mind to,
>
>Doc
>NP-f31
Dear Doc,
Curious. I must confess that, although I actually know face-to-face
very few Boylovers, I suspect that very few as children had been
actually molested themselves. Now certainly, a Boylover who may have
been arrested for molestation (or any other of the increasingly
numerous and convoluted attending charges) is oft likely to claim he
had been ... for it is an effective ploy for getting sympathy and a
lighter penalty. I do not criticise any person in such a position for
claiming so ... I would do the same! Rather, I suspect the truth of
the tale.
I can tell you in all honesty (barring the outside possibility that I
had suffered some horrible post traumatic reaction to being diddled
and had utterly surpressed the memory-a load of tosh) that as a child
I was not and had never been approached, touched or mistreated by a
paedophile. And had I been, and had I been traumatised in the
process, I seriously doubt that such an adverse experience would have
made me a Boylover. Rather, I might have been driven in the other
direction--God forbid.
I was not effiminate as a young boy ... gay as so many now mistakenly
tag it ... but I was painfully timid and easily frightened. longing
for hugs and reassurance. As a lad I always feared new things, and
cherished my younger experiences ... to me the future held danger and
the past security and warmth. Needless to say, my self-esteem
(believe it or not!) was very low among my peers.
Did I gravitate towards affection for boys because of my affection for
having been a boy? Perhaps. Could it be genetic? Perhaps. But such
arguments are only useful to those who insist that paedophilia is an
affliction as well as an affront to morality and society. I don't
worry about it anymore. I know who I am. I acccept it.
I realised I was "different" at puberty, and it came one night in a
dream ... at the age of twelve, long before I experienced my first
ejaculation. A friend of mine, Bradley, had come to the front door
and rang me up. I opened the door and found him standing infront of
me atogether naked. He was also twelve, well-proportioned and quite
athletic ... a boy's boy.
And I thought it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. And I
awoke with a longing ... not in my groin, but deep in my heart.
Sincerely,
Victor
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