On Thu, 27 Jan 2011 21:09:13 -0500, Doc NP-f31 wrote:
>On Thu, 27 Jan 2011 17:50:05 -0500, 4s00th <4s00th@hushmail.com>
>wrote:
>
>>My body hurts, I'm finding it hard to care about anything ... except
>>that I don't like pain. Pleasures just don't seem to be pleasurable
>>anymore, and hey, I had the first real suicidal vision/impulse in
>>quite a while. For those of you who don't understand that depression
>>hurts like a mutha -- take notice.
>>
>>Bob Ryan just called the dude who called in that he saw Tim F. move
>>his golf ball MINUTELY when he removed a marker a supercilious twit. I
>>wouldn't have been so nice. And I don't even give a shit about pro
>>golf.
>>
>>At least if I were a manic depressive I could look forward to periods
>>of mania with tons of energy and feelings of bliss. Admittedly, the
>>depressive episodes tend to dominate 10 to 1, but at least there would
>>be that.
>>
>>And I guess I must be getting down to my last bit to be touting my
>>pain here -- you never ask for help until you're near the bottom -- at
>>least, that's been my experience.
>>
>>Do any of you have any idea how much I hate wanting to die? Not
>>killing myself -- I got scared straight on that one when I found out
>>what I might have done to someone who actually gave a damn, but just
>>wanting to fucking lie down and die.
>>
>>I do wonder if the troll realizes that I have finally downloaded Kidz
>>Bop 19 and just not cared enough to post it? Or if he realizes how
>>much I think those things are like cockroaches that just keep
>>spreading? I mean, really, let the damn kids sing the songs! Well,
>>find some kids who can sing -- we know that they're out there! Can you
>>imagine what Libera could do with a franchise like this? Let Josh and
>>Mini-Ben have a chance at Bad Day -- Maybe 'Kob could take a verse, or
>>even my little dynamo Kavanna! I tell you guys, if little Kavanna had
>>been the big bad wolf, that house of bricks would have fallen! I
>>swear, I've never seen anyone put so much of themselves into singing!
>>Such incredible JOY!
>>
>>Hmm, I realize that I was thinking the same thing about little Nakita,
>>how easily he smiles and how much personality he radiates -- and then
>>I was thinking about how 'Kob has such an angelic beatific smile that
>>you can practically see the halo! Kind of makes me wonder about
>>certain unnamed older brothers! <miss u, doc!>
>>
>>Thank God I have my little Whodat to keep me going. He's been such a
>>sweet dog -- not quite as little as I had intended, I think his beagle
>>stock is fortified with some other hound genes! Personally, I think
>>he's got a little coon hound in him, but what do I know? I ask him,
>>"Are you my boy?" and he licks my face. He knows well who feeds him!
>>
>>Anyway. I think I've worn myself out. I hope you guys are all doing a
>>lot better than I. And I pity any of you who feel worse.
>>
>>Love,
>>-- 4s00th@hushmail.com
>>
>>My email is always available for those looking for and willing to supply support in the effort to remain boy-lovers and not become child-molesters de jure if not de facto.
>
>Hey 4s00th,
>
>I've always found that when I am feeling particularly beat down, if I
>concentrate on helping someone else get through their rough spot, my
>mind can focus on positivity. At the very least you must get up and
>out and around despite the pain (the inside pain and the outside
>pain).
>
>I realize I owe you an e-mail and that will be forthcoming shortly.
>You referenced Kob's brother, and you'll remember me telling you what
>happened with him. Well, I'm helping two of them now, I'll fill you in
>later, but rebuilding psyches take a lot of love and effort. I wish to
>report some success though, and I will.
>
>Anyway, I hope a hug and good wishes helps out a little.
>
>Much love,
>
>Doc
>NP-f31
I'm glad that you're talking with them -- they're lucky to have you.
-- 4s00th@hushmail.com
My email is always available for those looking for and willing to supply support in the effort to remain boy-lovers and not become child-molesters de jure if not de facto.
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