In article <4rru46tpcqg172gidorarkiojh0ehanrto@4ax.com>, < Bone@Docs>
wrote:
> On 25 Jul 2010 22:01:02 -0500, " +Grant. " <+Grant@grant.grant> wrote:
>
> >In article <veip46d8ucct71ne8qauip2koddcl9q9a8@4ax.com>, < Bone@Docs>
> >wrote:
> >
> >> Dear Mr. Grant and everybody,
> >>
> >> We have enjoyed your stories about Stevie. We can't wait to see the
> >> one with T-Bone in it. We agree that Stevie would be someone we would
> >> want to meet if he was real. We know a little about monsters because
> >> one of us has one but we ain't saying who. T-Bone says that if Stevie
> >> was a little older we might hook up with him. But Doc says that Stevie
> >> is probably older than him now so maybe we missed out anyway. But
> >> thanks for the stories. We like how you put people in the stories from
> >> in here. Doc has been telling us about the different characters that
> >> are in here and we see some of them saying stuff or putting up
> >> pictures. He also told us about what goes on in the fort here. So we
> >> know about boy lovers. We want to thank boy lovers because they do
> >> sometimes help guys like us. We don't have are Dads around and Bone's
> >> Dad is dead. So what Doc does for us is amazing. We been looking
> >> forward to this vacation for months. Bone says sometimes just knowing
> >> somebody cares is all you need to get by. So thank you Doc, we love
> >> you. And thank you Mr. Grant for the stories and we want to thank Mr.
> >> Kittens for the pictures especially for the Zack pictures. Zack is
> >> invited to come over to hang with us any time and he should wear his
> >> spandex pants with the surprise inside. We think he would be
> >> interesting to get to know. And thank you to all the boy lovers who
> >> care about guys like us.
> >>
> >> Love,
> >>
> >> Mac and T-Bone
> >
> >First, I should say hello to you both, so...
> >
> >Hello to you both. LOL
> >
> >Second, we don't need the mister, unless you really missed her. We
> >don't use our real names here, so there is no need to be formal.
> >
> >I'm in the fort with Doc and the others, because I came here when I was
> >a kid looking for help understanding who I was. They helped me not kill
> >myself. I stick around here now to help people who helped me, and new
> >people who might need help, or just somebody they know who cares. Bone
> >is right. I can't do much else, but I recently discovered I could write
> >and post some stories some people liked. Unfortunately, I got hooked on
> >writing them, and can't stop. Some would think it's not that bad of a
> >thing to get hooked on. It's sure better than what fish get hooked on!
> >
> >I put some names of posters in the stories, because Doc suggested it.
> >Some of the names were easy to put on the stories realistically, but
> >some were very hard. Kittens are in them, but pasted on the wall over
> >George's bed, because George and Kittens, and Registered. are all the
> >same person. I tried to put the poster's personality in the characters
> >as much as I could, but it's hard to do that when you don't know how
> >they were like as kids. I didn't do well with Cosmos. I'm not sure he
> >likes that I made him into Cosmo, the dance teacher. I think the poster
> >named Chad, isn't going to be upset how close his character gets to
> >Stevie. No way! LOL
> >
> >Both of you are in the camp stories, but only near the end, and I had
> >to make it rain a lot for it to happen, because I had already written
> >the stories before that. You will see what I mean when you read the
> >story called "Rain". You might guess so by its name. LOL
> >
> >You guys will be in the next year of sumer camp, MUCH more, which I'm
> >about to start writing. Unless you don't want me to do that.
> >
> >Some notes about "Stevie".
> >He isn't real. I made him up from parts of people I knew and read
> >about. The same for most of his adventures, and the other characters,
> >but most of the story ideas came from real things which actually
> >happened. In the story I just posted, the first part of the story,
> >about the horse, happened almost exactly that way, to ME!
> >I made the stories to happen between somewhere 1955 and 1964, so Stevie
> >would be too old for you now, if some miracle made him exist. Since he
> >is imaginary, we don't have to make him get older than we want to,
> >right?
> >Stevie wants to be bisexual, so he can have more friends and lovers to
> >chose from, than people who are only one way. One of the kinds of
> >suspense I'm putting into the stories is, is he? He loves Jeremy AND
> >Debbie, and more people later. But, is it just sexual? Does real love
> >have to be sexual? And the other way around, can you be sexual with
> >somebody you don't love? And if you can, should you? Stevie will be
> >exploring these issues, and many more, in his adventures. He even has
> >comments about adventures in general, too. In fact, I just wrote those
> >stories, number 51 "A Nose for My Trouble - Part 2" and number 52
> >"Telling a Nose".
> >
> >I don't really know what's going to happen in the stories, even when I
> >start writing. I have some ideas I want to write about, and sometimes I
> >start with that, or continue a previous story, or sometimes I just
> >start writing. There will be an idea, then a part of a story, then I
> >think what would Steve do next, and what can I make the other
> >characters do, that would make Stevie do or say interesting things,
> >then I write them. A lot of the stories end up being something totally
> >unexpected. That's funny, because I'm the one who's writing them, but
> >other writers say the same things. I though they were crazy, but now I
> >understand. Does that make me crazy too? Maybe if you heard me laugh...
> >
> >My next story post is The Adventures of Stevie #21 "Baseballed".
> >I think you can guess it's about baseball, right? This is different.
> >Stevie never played baseball before, and didn't know anything about it.
> >The way he sees it is very funny. But, that's not all. There is a
> >lesson in it for US, which Stevie doesn't get yet. Two lessons,
> >actually. See if you can spot what they are.
> >
> >By the way, Stephen doesn't like to be called "Stevie", so we do.
> >A little bit of friendly teasing never hurt anybody, did it? LOL
> >
> >I hope you have fun with Doc, and with each other. I mean more fun.
>
> Dear Grant,
>
> Thank you for taking time out to write to me and Mac. You said
> something about not killing yourself. I would like to know what you
> meant because I think I know what you meant. When I met Doc he was the
> only person I knew who didn't make me feel like a freak for being gay.
> He told me I was normal and what I felt was normal and he was right.
> But my whole life before that even though I was only 11 back then
> people picked on me for being who I am. One of my Moms boyfriends used
> to give me crap and called me a little faggot just because I wanted a
> hug or a kiss from him. That didn't stop him from rubbing his dick
> between my ass cheeks till he came all over my pajamas. I thought I
> was getting love from him. It wasn't until this past Easter that I saw
> it for what it really was. I don't know how old you are or how long
> its been since you was in high school but its still no place to be
> gay. The gay guys at our school get treated like shit just like I used
> to. So my point is somebody can only take so much shit in their lives
> like bullies and name calling before they snap. When some people snap
> they go postal and take it out on everybody. When other people snap
> they turn it on themselves. When your 11 you don't have no power and
> so you kill the pain by killing you. I got lucky the day I snapped
> somebody showed me what love means. If you snapped I'm glad you didn't
> go through with it and I hope somebody was there for you. I'm glad
> because your here and your making people smile with your stories. So
> thanks for caring.
>
> Peace, T-Bone
You made me angry. VERY angry. Not at you, but at the other people in
your life who treated you worse than people get arrested for treating
animals. I have seen more horrible things happen to people. I know
dying isn't the worst that can happen to a kid. I hope you never have
to see what I saw, or even know about it. We all have to live with our
memories, but we don't have to let them make us into something we don't
want to be. What happened to you was made worse because you didn't
deserve it. Injustice hurts a lot more than some people think. It can
stay with you for a very long time. Let Doc keep healing you of it. Mac
too. Nothing works better than love.
I wasn't picked on. I was bigger than most, and a popular football
player. I just didn't want to be who I thought I was inside. I liked
girls, and had girlfriends, but I liked boys too, but I was afraid to
do anything with them. I thought there was something wrong with me. I
was very afraid somebody would find out. Sometimes I wanted to die,
just to get it over with. We had computers. I searched and found the
fort. There were kids like me in it who had a good time, and there were
people who cared. That made me decide to stick around for a while. I
forgot about wanting to kill myself. It took me a while to notice that.
Stupid, wasn't it?
I felt so much better about myself, I didn't need to stay with the
group, but I did visit it once in a while, even when I was going to
college. Then I went to war. I got exploded in Iraq. Some parts of me
never made it back to the States. I wasn't whole. I didn't want to
live, all over again. I had been a big strong athlete, then I thought I
was nothing without that. I had lots of professional help and got
better. I had nothing to do for a long time, while I was recovering
from lots of operations, so I came back to the fort. There was a war of
a kind going on here, and I stepped right in the middle of a pile of
it. I joined in the "fun". It gave me another reason to live, I
suppose. The people here then helped me become more peaceful, and
"nice", in a way the shrinks in the hospitals couldn't, because I
couldn't tell them everything. So, I owe the fort and the people in it,
SOME of them, my life all over again, and I went back to college and
got my brain so filled up with educational stuff, I have to do
something with it now. Sharing is good, right?
Now my life is beautiful, and I have a great new job I'm starting soon.
I had some tough times getting to where I am, which I wouldn't wish on
anybody, but they did help to make me somebody I like now. I hope all
your tough times are over with, and you can like who you are, and you
have only good times now, and for ever after.
> Dear Grant,
>
> Bone wasn't going to say this but I want you to know. Last spring one
> of the varisty football players was threatening one of the out guys
> Bone was talking about. The guy was going to punch this kid, a
> freshman, and Bone stepped in. The guy swung Bone and Bone took him
> out. I didn't see it happen but I got all the details. The other guy
> got suspended for two weeks for hate speech and threatening another
> student. Bone only got a day and a half. Maybe you might say no
> fighting but I think he did the right thing and I'm proud of him.
>
> Love,
>
> Mac
I'm glad he did it. I'm an ex soldier. I know about fighting. In a good
cause, I hope. His was a good cause. I don't know if I would have the
courage to do it myself, at his age. That's another reason why I admire
him.
I'm trying to make Stevie into somebody like your Bone. Courageous and
caring. Somebody I would like to have been as kid, but was too afraid.
I don't know if you love Bone, or how much, but if you do, I think you
have a good man there, who really deserves all our love. I'm glad
you're proud of him, because I am too.
You can tell him all this, but I suspect he might be able to read it
for himself.
For you both, one of the reasons I'm writing and posting the Stevie
stories, is so kids who come here can see possibilities and
circumstances and consequences before they experience them themselves,
so they have some idea what can happen. They can explore ideas they
maybe never thought of, in a fun and interesting way. This might help
them, with who they want to be, and what they want to do in the future.
I hope.
I will be waiting for you to tell me what the two lessons are in
Baseballed. You can get help from Doc, if you want.
Have fun, and always be yourself to each other.
--
Grant
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