Hi Spike,
I'm sorry I wasn't thinking when I misunderstood about the 100 pound
cost for your Mum. A few minutes after sending that email it hit me
that it was a bundled account, with TV, internet, and phone, and so
our prices are much the same as yours. I just pay for the cheap
internet. I get the TV signal thru an antenna, and dont have a smart
phone, but a pay-as-you-go stupid phone.
So we were both kids on farms. I dont remember much either... one
memory is my mother wringing a chicken's neck, and the headless
chicken running crazy around the yard... I was too little to be
around the farm stuff much.
Well, at least you had the three relationships... I dunno, my problem,
well, it's a bit more complicated than I better say here. I had many
wonderful opportunities that I never could take... ugh! But I'm not
dead yet, so you never know, more opportunities may yet come again.
Hope springs eternal.
At this point, I'm pretty sure I'll never get into the torrents...
usenet itself is more than enough for me, and at this point, I'm
wanting to disconnect from that as well, at least for a time.
One of my loves is sculpting. I didnt have a lot of toys as a kid,
but had modeling clay and made things... and then in 1980, as an
adult, and not long after departing that cult, I found my old clay at
my parents house, and started making stuff again, and then got into
other materials, polymer clays, and started making little people, even
little portraits, and got pretty good at it, and imagined all kinds of
things, but in the end, I'm not a business man, so I went back to
school to get a job, yada yada, years go by, now I'm retired and
wanting to pick back up with the art... and more and more years keep
going by... anyhow, now I'm determined to get back into it and see
what I can create. Part of my hopes to re-invent myself and get back
into the game... who knows.. maybe more pipe dreams, but I'm
determined to make something again soon, just after i finish this ,
that, and the other! not tonight, apparently!
About Facebook, I've always had mixed feelings about it. I love many
things about it, and hate other things... I have so many opinions to
express about it... anyhow, 2018 was a very hard year for me
personally, and facebook played a big part in the stress, and there
was a breaking point when I defriended pretty much everybody except a
very few folks... so I dont do much there now. I deleted all my
photos and videos, comments, etc...
My mom grew up on a farm, a tobacco farm, so she started smoking early
on, once she got out of the house, I suppose. She always defended
smoking, but she didn't like it when I started... I spoke harshly
towards smoking the other day, and urged you to quit... I wouldn't
want to deprive you of pleasure and comfort...
Likewise, regarding religion and belief in God and the after-life... I
dont want to spoil people's dreams and hopes... I dont care what
other people want to believe, live and let live is my attitude...
But what if I could see that someone had been deceived into thinking
that something like nicotene is giving them pleasure, when the real
story is that nicotene's only pleasure is easing the withdrawal
symptoms from the addiction? but that's me and my opinions... yet i
would encourage you... to do what, i dunno... i dont know what i'm
going to do either... i hope to make art... i tried writing a book,
but nobody wanted to read it, and the few i forced to read it didnt
like it, so what do i know....
yet, hope springs eternal! You need more hope! :D I dunno where you
can get it, but it's there, somewhere, you just have to find it...
when you get a good dose of hope, you never know, you might even
decide to quit smoking and try round four! Who knows!
And again about the religion, i dont care what anybody wants to
imagine about, but when it comes to real life, we are in trouble when
we've got alternate versions of truth fighting with each other...
that's why I'm trying to defend the need to have a common basis for
what is truth and what isn't, because without that, we'll never be
able to make peace and a house divided against itself will not stand
for long... so that's my take. It's not to hurt anybody, but maybe
to save the planet!
cheers to you!
Hope you got to check out that concert video!
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