Hello my name/handle is Ed Getch/Steady Eddie and I live in Palo
Alto California. After being fired from my middle management position at
Lockheed/Martin for using my computer for bad things and poor work
performance I now work for Brad Lozares as a golf marshall picking up
paper cups & hot dog wrappers at the Palo Alto Municiple golf course on
Embarcadero Rd. in Palo Alto. You can reach me at
1-650-856-0881 if you'd like.
I must finally confess and come out of the closet. It has been a
very hard discision on my part to finally do this but the heavy mental
load of constant threat of exposure to my family and friends I feel it
must stop and I come clean for once. I am a homosexual man and I have
lived a lie my entire life, I enjoy young men and young boys and I really
like to submit to there demands. It makes me feel so loved and wanted and
fills the void I have in my life. I have tried drugs to fill the gap but
nothing works except the love of very young men which I so much enjoy.
But as of late I have found what I think is true love and that would be
with:
Ben Dale Leaman
dbcooper3390@yahoo.com
jose222@ziplip.com (phoney address but uses it in posting)
309 West Lemon Street
Lancaster, Pa.17603-2917
1-717-295-9727
We have been lovers off and on for several years when we could
get away and be together and it is the best feeling in my life and I must
admit to myself and everyone my love for this man. I am a retired person
living on my social security and my lover Ben has been most kind and
loving to me by helping me with all my emotional problems that I have.
He must I am sorry to admit sell drugs on the Internet to help
support the both of us but we are not the one bit ashamed about it. But
the one thing i am sad about is the dealings Ben does in that I mean he
sometimes cuts his drugs with "foreign" substances what they are I have
no idea some have even stated rather hatefully that they contained toxic
substances. But I think the problem is that Ben buys his drugs from
South America and Serbia which both countries have hard feeling toward
Americans, so it might be right that they contain foreign substances.
I have seen Ben on many occassions "shoot" his drugs in his arm
and he would be most horribly sick I would think sometimes he was going
to die, heaven forbid should he die I would be lost. My only true love
in this world gone from my loving arms sickens me to the core. Also I am
scared of the "seedy" people he associates with in that I mean the South
and Central Americans and the Arabs, some I think just might have
connection to terrorist. He has on occasions left me alone to go pick-up
strangers in the middle of the night and give them a place to sleep for a
day and then give them money and clothes and papers for some reason and
then tell them "Allah is Great" as they leave the house.
Lately he has been making something out of some kind of bean he
calls Castor Beans to make something I don't know what it is for some
reason?
I don't know what to make of all these things and I am so afraid
of saying anything to anyone for fear of it getting back to Ben and he
starts to beat me more than he usually do. The spankings are so very
erotic and sexual and I truly enjoy them to the fullest, but he has a
deep-seated hate and sometimes it reaches the surface and when that
happens I'm so afraid and excited at the same time, but he hurts me at
times. I know he doesn't mean it but there are times I'm really afraid
but he always tells me he is sorry and it will never happen again.
Please help to find the strenght to find the right decision and
help Ben out of his circustance so we both can have a loving family we so
desperatly deserve and want.
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