FROM: 4s00th <4s00th@hushmail.com>
> acute gout attack, started out in one ankle but is now in both -- can
> barely put any weight on either of them. My luck, because of changes
> by the FDA, I had let one of my meds slip -- the FDA has removed all
> generic versions of the med off the market claiming that some of the
> formulas had other stuff in them that could be harmful -- but not
> necessarily. The only pharmacy in town that had the non-generic meds
> was an obscure little pharmacy on the other side of town -- that
> closed minutes after I called to see how much the medicine would cost
> so I could send my brother to get it. My other brother was out of town
> and could not pick it up until ALSO after the pharmacy closed.
> fortunately, i did get some relief last night and got some sleep, but
> I was awakened after my fever broke around 5:30. i have cat-napped
> some since and am now waiting for my brother who is working in town
> today to come by and bring the medicine which should help dissolve the
> uric acid crystals that have formed in my joints. However, I have
> almost run out of my pain meds and since the doctor now requires that
> only I can pick up the new prescriptions from their office, and I
> cannot get out of the house due to the gout. can't sit up long as it
> is not good for me to leave my ankles on the floor instead of having
> them up, and even having them up hurts! seriously -- it hurts when you
> move the joint, it hurts when you don't move the joint, it hurts when
> you try to hold the joint unmoving and whatnot. it fucking hurts like
> a bastard. am getting to the bathroom with the help of my father's old
> wheel chair -- thankfully. but it only gets me so far -- bathroom is
> long and narrow and i can just get past the door.
>
> prayers or whatever you happen to believe in would be welcome.
> seriously, want to gnaw my leg off above the ankle as pain sometimes
> radiates up the leg into the knee and along back of thigh kind of like
> sciatica. am feeling so lost, wish I could see Kavanna, my Libera
> sweetie. prolly doesn't remember me from Atlanta, but that's prolly
> the way it should be -- still, fell in love when I saw him sing; wish
> I could have had him sing a little song just for me so that I would
> recognize his voice on the recordings, but less important than just
> his incredible love for singing and the tons of effort he puts into
> his singing.
>
> am sorry to hear from the kits that I am not myself, which I find
> horribly sad. Still, if i'm not myself then I must not be in the
> horrible pain that I am in. don't i wish. do wish people would stop
> baiting the kits, tho -- remember, when you get into a shouting match
> with someone who is mentally ill, it is awful difficult for observers
> to tell which is which. and while I would not attempt to diagnose over
> the internet, someone certainly acts like someone with schizophrenia,
> paranoid type. kits mean well, but difficult to hold it together.
> however, I am not doc or y-not or grant or anybody else i'm suddenly
> (once again) supposed to be. wish kits would concentrate on really
> awesome work and creative efforts -- love that work. and was so nice
> to add a few of my faves -- Shane Sinutku (sp) and the incredibly
> beautiful Fritz. For those special works, I thank the kits a great
> deal. Meant a lot to me that he went out of his way on the Shane
> picture because I had mentioned that he had been one of my very first
> major crushes, tho the boy is actually a year older than me! From the
> moment I saw him in that episode of Quincy about child abuse, he had
> my heart. Even tho I was horribly confused about what it all meant
> back then being pre-pubertal myself.
>
> anyway, my friend Leslie used to say that she could tell when things
> were really bad if i wasn't worrying about punctuation & grammar and
> just trying to get quick message out!
>
> 'preciating the prayers & whatnots in advance
>
> love,
> -- 4s00th@hushmail.com
>
Is obvious you are in pain. My heart goes out to you.
Had a relative who had gout and I saw his pain.
He wanted to chew his leg off at times.
Being too sick to go to the doctor I understand.
Thank God you have brothers who can help you.
I pray you have your meds by now and the pain is passing this time.
Do everything in your power to keep your legs *UP* and stay off your
feet!
Surely my friend, things cannot get worse for you. Your life has got to
turn-around so you can see the rainbow and your bluebird of happiness
must be looking for you.
GET WELL!
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