Hello Aleka/No Pubes OOO,
I received my first response today from one of my boys, L. L is a
Brit, he is 17 and from the ages of 8-12 he was molested by a
photographer from London (whom we refer to as DHM). About a year ago,
when the molester was arrested L had to face the world about what was
done to him. He'd lived with the secret for four years (the entire
time I had known him). When the news was made public and the police
called him in for questioning L was stricken with shame and guilt for
what was done to him. As he says, what he allowed to happen.
He responded immediately to my request for comments on your most
recent post, which is available in another thread from 11/23.
L writes:
Dear Doc,
Do you really think what I have to say to this man will change how
he feels and change his behaviour? He has to want to change before
change will occur. From the correspondences you have shared with
me, he seems to try to legitimise his paedophilia by amplifying
more terrible things, i.e., Nazis killing millions of Jews, Stalin
killing innocent people, even G.W.Bush's war that has killed men,
women, and children. God, how does paedophilia rank up against all
those. Surely, it can't be that bad <sarcasm>.
And then, to justify the abuse of boys in the name of "love".
C'mon...really? I can maybe understand a little of his delusion. I
let DHM get a foot in because I was searching for someone to pay
attention to me and I liked that attention and I thought I loved
him, and I let him touch me and kiss me. The feelings I had were
conflicted. I wanted him to love me and I was afraid if I told him
I didn't want to have sex with him that he would discard me and my
career would be over as a model, and I would be back where I
started...looking for attention. So, we had sex. I didn't like it,
but I let it happen over and over. When I finally decided to tell
him, he became angry and he wouldn't listen to me. I would go home
and stand in a steaming hot shower and weep. That was my only
outlet. Being a Brit, I just couldn't tell my family. I was
embarrassed. On days when I had to go out for a shoot, I got
physically sick and vomitted, but I was pushed by that same family
I wanted to tell so badly, so I'd go. And he would touch me and
"pose" me and find a way to be alone with me (extend the shoot,
offer to take me home).
I'm not telling you anything you don't already know, Doc. This
"No Pubes" guy sounds like he is really smooth and slimey. His
comment, "If I had to work with abused boys, I would abuse them by
NOT telling them I am looking at their ass, thights, fresh skin, large
eyes, smooth and silky hair...". C'mon, really? Is this his way of
justifying his lust by trying to turn it around and blame the boy
because, THE BOY wants to hear that bullshit? Seriously? He is
delusional! Okay, let me make sure I get this right...
No Pubes thinks abused boys want to hear they have a sweet arse,
that it feels good to have an adult-sized cock shoved up that
really sweet arse, or shoved down the beautiful, fresh skin throat
that he has been slobering all over minutes before? And maybe I can
keep my long, silky, smooth hair that way because he shoots his wad
all over my face and hair and into my large, seductive, doe-like
eyes? Could that be the trick, Doc?
I think you are wasting your time with this guy because he thinks
he is providing a good service to boys. He doesn't get it and
doesn't WANT to get it, so why waste your time on this slimeball?
You can't fix him Doc. He doesn't want to be fixed. He is an
abuser and he will eventually get caught and then he will see how
it really feels from the boy's point of view. I hope he gets raped
for everytime he provided his "civic duty" to a boy, and may God,
NEVER have mercy on his soul.
It is ALL about him, Doc, not about the boy, and that is what
makes you so very different from this dilusional piece of shit. If
he touched one of my brothers or any other boy I care about, I'd
hunt him down and serve a little of my own retribution. You know
what? Maybe No Pubes will get lucky and "compliment" one of those
courageous, abused boys about his sweet, fresh-skin arse as the boy
is plunging a blade into his hairy, pock-marked chest, over, and
over, and over.
Does that give you an idea of how I really feel about this animal?
Love,
L
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I talked to T-Bone and he promises to make arrangements to comment in
the coming days. My third boy, T, was abused by the self same DHM that
abused L, but T told. He is currently in intensive counseling and will
hopefully be released to his Mum as early as next week. If he is up to
the task, he will also address your post.
I will make no judgments and let the boys words do the talking.
Stay Safe and work toward unselfishness,
Doc
NP-f31
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